Need to Get Workin on My Fitness

I really need to lose weight. I'm miserable. I feel awful in everything I wear, I feel completely unattractive. I get these random bursts of motivation, and I'll do great for a few days, and then I something happens and I get discouraged. I hate myself at this weight. I'm not huge by any means, but this is by far the biggest I've ever been.

So far this week, I've done really well. I'm really trying hard to see it not as a diet, but as a lifestyle change. Now I just need to get my chunky butt off the couch to work out! My husband is a huge inspiration. He lost 75 pounds before we met, and has kept the weight off for years. He eats extremely healthy, works out every day (even at work) and is just amazing. I wish I had his motivation!

Part of me thinks, well. We're going to start trying for a baby in 6 months. Does it really make sense to lose all the weight just to get pregnant? And then I say SILENCE BRAIN! It does make sense! My body is a vessel for our child, and I need to do a better job in making myself a healthier host.